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We rode into town the other day Just me and my daddy He said I'd finally reached that age And I could ride next to him on a horse That of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting And so we stopped to find out why And there was that man that my dad said he loved But today there was fear in his eyes
So I said daddy why are they screaming Why are the faces of some of them beaming? Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe? I'll bet that crown hurts him more then he shows Daddy please can't you do something? He looks as though he's gonna cry You said he was stronger then all of those guys Daddy please tell me why? Why does everyone want him to die?
Later that day the sky grew cloudy And daddy said I should go inside Somehow he knew things would get stormy Boy was he right But I could not keep from wondering If there was something he had to hide So after he left I had to find out I was not afraid of getting lost So I followed the crowds To a hill where I knew men had been killed And I heard a voice come from the cross
And it said father why are they screaming? Why are the faces of some of them beaming? Why are they casting their lots for my clothes? This crown of thorns hurts me more then it shows Father please can't you do something? I know that you must hear my cry's I thought I could handle a cross of this size Father remind me why? Why does everyone want me to die? When will I understand why?
My precious son I hear them screaming I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own Jesus this hurts me much more then you know But this dark hour I must do nothing Though I've heard your unbearable cries The power in your blood Destroys all of the lies Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies Look there below See the child Trembling by her father's side Now I can tell you why She is why you must die
Why-Nicole Nordeman
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Hi Daddy, it's been so long since I came here..
Well, exams are over now. and I really feel free :D
Maybe too free..I need something going on in my life. I keep waiting for him to go online. It's so lame..Daddy, I know u can help me. But I just don't wanna let go. I'm so stubborn.
Oh yes, tomorrow, I'll be going to kl. I pray for a safe journey..You'll be there watching over us won't u? :)
I would be lying if i said I don't mind which place I got, but I need to learn to take disappointments in life. So help me to stay strong Daddy, tomorrow, if I don't get the 1st prize :) Be with me.
I dunno daddy.. He seems normal..right..is he the one? I find myself wondering at times..But it would sound absurd if he really is..I mean..I only met him online. This would be crazy if parent knew. But I know I can confront it all to u.
So daddy, all in all life is good :) and I thank you for that. You've been more then good to me. Thanks again :)
your little girl,
tam
tranquility deep within [: 1:34 AM
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Hi daddy.. :)
its been a real rollercoster ride these few days.
wow.
i've never broke down on one night and felt so good on the next.
you know? i'm sure u do :)
I just felt so burdened and unhappy these days... cuz of STPM partly.
but then he made me smile. I know i shouldn't put my happiness on this one guy.. since its not stable..unlike in You..but i dunno..somehow he made me feel different? :S
i really don't wanna think about this too much..pls help me. >_<
anyways..its been really good to have You here..listening to my problems..sharing my pains.
Thank you for relieving most of my pains :D
Next few days is gona get harder as STPM is nearing..
hope you help me more XD
*sigh*
love You Daddy :)
tranquility deep within [: 12:38 AM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Hi DADDY!!
hahah you can easily see i'm in a good mood today.
cuz I sang as a backup today!
it was my first time! and it was super FUN!
of course doing this for you made it even more special ^___^
I'd never expect me to say this, but I totally enjoyed it.
Thanks Dad for giving me this opportunity and experience.
and getting to sing along with my girls was another blessing from You.
I hoped I made you happy.
I hoped I made you smile..
I didn't actually sing from my heart, I know..but I was paying too much attention maming sure I'm not singing anything wrong..hahaha..
it really was fun Dad.. but I know You let me do this as a preperration to song lead.
I don't think I'm ready for that....yet...
i still get the cold feet :(
Hope i'll be able to get over it asap for You ;)
oh and Dad, I'm having it again.
the lonely feeling.
:S
Don't like it. Help me? :)
I know You would.
Thank YOU! :)
tranquility deep within [: 12:16 AM
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Hi daddy,
its me again.
I know i'm so mean. I only come to you when I have something bothering me ><
*sigh* I don't know who else to talk to.
it's about him. He's almost perfect.
Why do I have an almost perfect guy in my life but I can't have him?
can't be with him?
True! I don't fully know him
maybe when I do, he won't be so perfect anymore.
But now, that's just what I think of him - perfect. Well, almost.
He's your child too. He has dimples.lol.
I don't know, I've been woreser.. now's okay then last time.
At least I can control my feelings now :)
thanks Dad ^__^
Anyway, I'd really like to know why he's in my life.
When I can't really get to know him.
and in my point of view, I don't see anyway I can get into his life for real.
:(
:)
but either way, I still have You.
That's what matters :)
PS: Dad, if i can't have him... at least let me get over him? I need the one You made for me :)
tranquility deep within [: 6:07 PM
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Daddy, I know you know what I'm going to say..
but i'm gona say it anyway...
It's coming back again.
I don't know me as much as You know me
that much is true.
So whatever I'm feeling now is not really what I think it is, right Daddy?
You know what this stupid feeling really is and I hope you'll explain it to me soon Dad?
>_<
I don't like this feeling especially when I don't know what he's feeling..
You know what I mean :(
Daddy Daddy, help me.
I think I may have let myself into this but can You get me out?
Please? *puppy dog eyes*
I know you will. You wouls.
You never let me down :)
This feeling, its familiar.
and i've had it tons of times.
So much so that I'm starting to get sick of it.
It all ends the same as well.
I get over 'em like it was nothing.
But this one.. this time.. I want it to be different
can it happened?
I know I've asked you to plan one for me..
I'm 100% positive You already have, even before I asked you.
But question is, is he the one?
I know i'm gona ask myself this question 1000000000000 times again in the future.
*sigh*
help me Daddy
*grins*
I know you would :)
tranquility deep within [: 6:59 AM
Thursday, September 17, 2009
THANK YOU DADDY!!
the phone is finally taken. I feel better :)
Read Cynthia's blog and they went to celebrate TK's bday. I felt left out. Even though its true that I don't feel like going to places like that.. I can't help feeling left out, you know..
It is a good thing that I'm moving away. Or at least that's what we think.
It's all up to You in the end, you know dad? :)
I feel so tired of entertaining them at times. Even when I'm with them, I can feel like an outsider. I don't dress up like them, I've to make an effort to be a part of them.. and I don't think that's what real friends are, right?
I dunno..maybe You want to teach me something from them? I still don't know what is it if You really do.. I know I'm stubborn. I'll try to change. Remind me constantly k? :)
tranquility deep within [: 1:04 AM
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Daddy, he's feeling down.
what should i do?
why am i so emotionally stuck with him?
maybe i let myself fall into this.
but still, he's Your son, my borther.
I just so wanted to make him feel better. Can I?
will You put the words in my mouth? or the words to my fingertips?
please tell me what to tell him. and I'll blog about it yea?
thank you daddy :)
good night!
tranquility deep within [: 6:55 AM
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hahaha, whats this? Apparently its for me to introduce myself but there's nothing important you should know about me :) Name's Tammie.But call me tam :D I'm not your typical goody-two-shoes (though I do show some signs XD) but I try my best to be what He wants me to be.It ain't easy, but I'm not giving up.Because with Him, all things are possible.